I was determined to not let anything destroy my mood this Christmas, not even on Christmas Eve, not by the party I ended up going in the end, not the fact that the birthday girl might not like my present, not even being home with two kids. It’s weird, when that I believed my mood can’t be dampen, I actually felt like I suddenly got a bigger heart. I’m glad. Because it won’t last. It better not.

Even so, I was rudely jolted by a video someone sent me. Even though I didn’t watch it, I still got the gist of it. Apparently, you are supposed to watch how cruel humans are, get angry, curse, sign a petition and send it to more people so that you can upset them. I agree that everyone should do something about these obviously cruel actions but sending videos of it and cursing those people isn’t going to help. Instead, try and do something that will actually result in something more than tears and swear words.

But really, how many of us actually does anything about it? I say I want to but I still did nothing and I could give a dozen excuses. However, if I really wanted to help, no amount of reasoning could have stopped me. Don’t get me wrong though, I am strongly against it but not strong enough apparently.

But I digress.

The world is full of these insanely cruel actions, full of sadness and tears, starvation and illnesses, anger and hatred. They are unjust and morally incorrect but that is just the way things are. We try our hardest to change these facts but they are hard to change. At the end of the day, take comfort in knowing that just as there is sadness, there is joy and just as there is hatred, there is love. And also take comfort in knowing that you are not the only one trying to change the world. The world is with you, that is, if my heart represents the world.

Oh damn. And I was trying so hard to make this a happy and bubbly post. No matter, it’s not 12 yet. Plenty of time to drag that smiling and superficial but contented girl back in time for Christmas.

p/s: Oh, and Merry Christmas to you too. Hopefully, I would not have time to blog tomorrow.